I don't know if thats the right word/title but thats what I'm calling it.
I start my new job tomorrow and my baby (14 months) starts daycare tomorrow. I feel so nervous, I thought I'd be fine but no. This is the first time I'm EVER leaving my baby this young with a stranger for set hours.
That's when I ask myself, do I really want this? Am I ready?
Then on top of that I am nervous because the daycare provider has a pool. Her fence is on order but told me that the doors are locked & has an alarm on the door if anyone opens it.
Its also just my baby and another little baby. So its a small place, its not like I have to worry about the babysitter being so overwhelmed that mine is forgotten.
I don't know, I called my Mom and told her about my worry. I'm almost at that point of just wanting to call it all off.
My best friend and my mom said to reiterate to the babysitter tomorrow morning about my concerns & to call if I'm nervous/worried. The babysitter did say she also texts pictures to the parents phone.
In fact, the babysitter watched her during my interview and sent me pictures & gave me a picture that the baby drew. Albeit it was from 8-11 am and not 8-2:30 like the hours will be.
I don't know... can I really do this? I spent Saturday in the ER with my son since he's been sick since Thursday... how do women who work outside the home do it?
Gosh, I am soooo nervous. Career-wise, I can't turn down this opportunity. This CPA is willing to mentor me & considering to train me to own day take over her firm... and here I am the night before scared of leaving my baby.
Mother's remorse
March 23rd, 2009 at 01:07 am
March 23rd, 2009 at 01:17 am 1237771021
Try it for a week and see how it feels by Friday.
March 23rd, 2009 at 01:58 pm 1237816721
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March 23rd, 2009 at 05:52 pm 1237830764
And you are doing quite well - some mothers don't have options. Some have to work, and some have to stay home because they are just not worth enough in the marketplace to pay daycare for all their children and additional expences associated with working.
I just went off birth control and hoping to have a baby someday.
Of course, I am sure that I will remain completely rational and will go back to work after 4 months of maternity leave.
March 23rd, 2009 at 06:41 pm 1237833716
Your baby will be FINE, I'm sure! ((hugs))
March 23rd, 2009 at 08:41 pm 1237840897
I have never been in that position either, but had reservations about putting my 2.5-year-old in full day daycare last year. (The place is like family and I wasn't worried about his safety - just about the all day thing). Anyway, he LOVED it and it really worked out for the best. We are all going crazy now that he is down to partial afternoons. Ugh. HE misses it the most of anyone.
I had to giggle reading your post because I get the same way when the kids go to Grandma's. She has a pool and it drives me nuts. But if not for the pool, it would be something else. She often takes the kids a night or 2, and it just gets up my anxiety level, though I know they are in GREAT hands. It's a *mom* thing, for sure.
March 23rd, 2009 at 08:43 pm 1237840994
Dropping my oldest child off for the first time was the weirdest feeling in the world. But the situation was great and I don't think I ever fretted after the first day.
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