I'm feeling more and more positive about everything. As if I had been asleep for the past six months & I've had a new beginning or awakening.

We leave in an hour or so to do the move-out inspection. I'm confident that our tenants did a wonderful job & that all of this is a start to something new.

I'm not entirely sure what the future may hold or where I'll be living in a year from now (Military) but I have the confidence that no matter what happens, its for the best and we will land on our feet.

Speaking of which, that reminds me that I need to list the plasma TV on Craiglists and a few other baby items. We had a garage sale in May but there are some bigger items that I need to get rid of. The clear space & extra money will help add to a sense of freedom.

I think it all started with a desk to be honest. We were credit card free back in June '06 and I wanted a desk. We had $1000 in a CD & I told myself, "Lets buy this desk, its for my home office. I'll put it on the CC, cash the CD and pay off the credit card with it."

Well, I did the first two, but I never followed through on the third. And once I had a credit card balance again it made it easy to charge things up.

I think once I can get rid of the desk & the source of what started all the debt, the feelings from that will start to cause more momentum to help us get back to our goals.

As we pay off our debt, I plan to continue reducing our credit lines. Not necessarily because I think I can't trust myself, but because I am so confident I will not need those lines of credit that I have no need for them to be open. I guess I could use the analogy of how I felt getting married at 18. I was so confident I had found the man of my dreams that I was going to get married that young and not worry about "What I may miss" or "Something better coming along".

Ten years later, I am still confident about who I married. I've learned more from him as my life partner than any other relationship I've had.

But thats a different story.

We should find out next week if we can go back to Hawaii or the West Coast, wish us luck. So many people have told us its impossible for us to go back with four kids, especially now - but we've wanted this for so long, THAT is where home is. And no matter how many people tell us it will never happen, I know it will - its just a matter of when.

And I love DH's persistence. Even though his detailer said it would never happen, he said "Well, I'll never know unless I ask and I'll keep asking until they tell me to stop."

Wish us luck, I have a good feeling about it all that in the end, everything will all fall into place so perfectly even I couldn't have planned it.

BTW, Financially the only thing I plan to spend money on is getting the oil changed in my van. Then its home for dinner, dessert, and movies